The soul is healed by being with children.
- Fyodor Dostoevsky
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I’d like to share with you guys my experiences with anxiety. I’ve had this condition since I was a little girl. I can’t really remember a time when I did not struggle with panic attacks and uncomfortable feelings. When I was younger, I had no appreciation for my condition whatsoever. I hated every second of it. I felt constrained and was being held back from things that I wanted to do but couldn’t bring myself to do them due to these attacks. I was in constant fear of when and where my next panic attack would strike. It was debilitating to me in every way possible. I questioned God almost every day, why why WHY me?? Why is this happening? Why can’t I be normal? Why do I feel like this? Am I dying? Am I an alien? WTF IS GOING ON?! I had no answers, which was extremely frustrating to me. Doctors gave me reasons, therapists gave me ways to cope, prescription pills gave me some relief, but it wasn’t enough for me. I wanted a definite answer as to why I had to deal with this and when it would go away.
My child was diagnosed with Schizophrenia at the young age of 7 years old. Our lives had changed significantly since he was born. We had another child before him and knew what was considered normal development and behavior, but my new son was different from the start. He rarely wanted to be held….
With a Master’s Degree in Business (MBA), and more than 25 years of working as an accomplished consultant in the Information Technology field, Billy was considered a successful professional, providing well for his three children, while working for the Federal government at NASA Johnson Space Center in Houston, Texas. It was a surprise to his family members and co-workers when they found out he was affected by a long lasting manic bipolar episode which left him unable to think properly, and in a downward spiral that led to the loss of his job and income.
Next came the loss of the health-care coverage for himself and his children, and consequently the loss of the ability to procure proper clinical help, counseling, and the medications he needed to help stabilize this manic bipolar episode.
Without the mental capability to provide support for even himself, he was unable to support or have custody of his three children, which contributed significantly to his downward spiral.